When to go

I keep speaking wanting more
can’t stop drinking on the floor
can’t be anything but here
a board for you to walk on dear
don’t mind me you never do
I’ll just be here just for you
when you want me pull me up
pour another bitter cup
give it to me nice and slow
so I never know just when to go

The man

Surrounded by my golden visage
I contemplate what I’ve been missing
how much further I could have gone
if this will make another hit song
would it be louder if I was a man
would I be prouder to be who I am
would I feel better
have myself together
have more money in my bank account
fill the museum with visitors now
sitting amongst all I own
I think being a man would make me whole
that maybe I’d feel better and bold
get more than I have ever known
what more could I have
I don’t know
but if I was a man I would
know just what more I could
and as I sit with all my wealth
I contemplate the loss I’ve felt

Love me

Love me
love me
please just tell me you do
I’m desperate for something to hold on too
I need more than emptiness
need more than words
I thought you loved me so why does it hurt
you gave me life brought me to this world
but you walked away proving my worth
love me
oh love me
please say that you do
even if it’s a lie I don’t care about the truth
I know that you don’t just say it please
so I know what it sounds like to hear something sweet
love me please love me
oh what did I do
you say that you need me but that’s nothing new
fill me with expectations kept far away
tell me you love me
I’m not asking you to stay

Precious little

I’ve got precious little left in me
too much haunted for you to see
a house abandoned years ago
the wood all molded from the snow
broken windows eyes unclean
cannot speak to shame
just speak to dream
sing of all that once had been
precious little time that is
too much broken too much dead
shattered in the molded shed
a manor once never again
I’ve got precious left to give

Token

Broken
so often token
lost in a sea of gold
I’ve been on both sides darling
but I don’t think that you know
I got my lace dress on
and I got that heart that shines
you think I’m made from nothing
you got tears in your eyes
I’ve been out in the dust cloud
I’ve weathered plenty of storms
here in your garden honey
I know my worth is torn
I’ve been the token body
poor girl that’s given more
I got lost in the diamonds
thought I could make the grade
but when you cut the cards baby
I’m the one that don’t get play
broken so often token
lost in that sea of gold
oh man my number’s spoken
you got the worth I don’t

How it works

I don’t know how the moonlight works
how the feet get you to church
how we drive when we can’t see
bleed from cuts that aren’t skin deep
we don’t even close our eyes for sleep
talking while we grind our teeth
tongues they dance and sing and swing
like the feet that once did gleam
not knowing how the meaning feeds
I don’t know how moonlight works
how it turns and cools the earth
how it prays and shows your worth
I don’t know the talking curse

Down the steps

What’s it worth to you
a little how do you do
more smile with less tooth
the truth is bluer than blue
an image in the snow
written yellow in white coal
the moan it’s so damn old
a recording warped and scored
what’s it worth to you right now
can you pay for it somehow
pull the pocket lint right out
smile big and large and wide
take the picture from the right
the side we never hide
the one done up so nice
come alive and dream forever
what it’s worth to you you’ll see
something so cold you can’t believe
drink the drowning kiss from skin
amused by what it was worth back then