No more yearning

Longing for a new life
a way to get a new stride
to look outside inside
and find myself tonight
to wake up with a new life
a new way to be so high
bright and everything burning
a heart that’s given up yearning
and this longing faraway
for a new life and new face

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Selflessly selfish

Selflessly selfish
I don’t want to be me
I don’t want to be surviving
just so I no longer scream
I don’t want give myself up
don’t want to ask for you
I just want to be somewhere
I actually feel I belong too
selflessly selfish
I don’t want to be so I am
I just want to forget it
forget me like I’m a sin
just want to move right past it
give nothing else away
I don’t ever receive anything
though I demand to be paid
selfish isn’t worth it
when you end up with nothing
when you’re all alone and crying
I wish I could forget me
gave all of me away and
now I’m all used up
made so many mistakes here
don’t know how to fix my wrongs
it’s life I’m always starting
starting over from the top
selflessly selfish
I don’t want to be me
I just want to go somewhere
I feel I belong maybe
I don’t want to give myself away
I don’t want to take all of your pain
I just want to be somewhere I belong
I wish I could forget me
I wish I never was
that I could just go back to
being part of the cosmic flood
selfishly quite selfless
I don’t want to be who I am
I just want to say goodbye here
and forget who I really am

We want it

We want the then now
we want the now then
we want it all at once
so we can play pretend
we want to be so young
so stupid innocent
we want all the knowledge
that lacks with it
we want all or nothing
but everything’s involved
we want the then now
we want the now then
we want everything
all at once
so we can play pretend
we want it now
now before it’s gone
we want it all together
all at once
we want it all
so messed up
we want the then now
we want the now then
we want it all at once
so we can act profound

Why do your children scream

Why do your children scream
cry until they can’t breathe
scream for you too see
to see that they are in need
why do your children want
want what you do not
want more than you give
why do you let them scream
cry and not satisfy their needs
why do I hear such things
screaming and crying
mommy please
they wail and wail all day
what are you doing anyway?
Why do your children scream
cry until they can’t breath
they’re screaming for you to see
as children they have needs
you made them so you’re responsible
they exist and you are the one they call
they scream and cry and beg for you
but you’re too tired to care, aren’t you?
Why did you have them
if you didn’t care
if you weren’t going to manage
their needs and their cares
why did you have them
just so they’d scream
tell all the neighbors how little they mean
why do your children scream
they cry and cry until they can’t breathe
why do your children cry
you ignore them and have all their life

Don’t wanna

I don’t wanna wake up
I don’t wanna see the truth
I don’t wanna know right from wrong
or good from bad
I want to go on living under sand
and I want to stop
feel like I’m always ever on top
I don’t wanna wake up
I wanna dream til I believe
I want what’s right now
and what feels good inside of me
I don’t wanna be a grown up
though I’m far too old to make that choice
I don’t wanna know that
I have misused my own voice
oh this is harder
harder than just staying in
I don’t wanna wake up
I’ve already seen where I haven’t been

Wouldn’t it be nice

Wouldn’t it be nice
if work was easy
if we didn’t have to try so hard
wouldn’t it be nice to have it all girl
to wake up in the sun and just have fun
if we didn’t have to work our ass off
if we didn’t have to try so hard
wouldn’t it be nice to live our dreams
make it look so damn easy and clean
wouldn’t it be nice to just get paid girl
not work and break a sweat
wouldn’t it be nice to live on clouds
walk around like we don’t care
not think about the very next meal
or if this check can pay the bills
wouldn’t it be nice to live like queens do
like girls who sell that pop
wouldn’t it be nice to be a celebrity
and pretend we work so much
wouldn’t it be nice to not get older
thinking of losing the home I rent
wondering what will happen next
wouldn’t it be nice to just be easy
to relax in the sun and laugh
wouldn’t it be nice to live like queens do
instead of working off that ass

I can’t let it go

I can’t let it go
I wanna watch it grow
moving from head to toe
gotta watch it slow
I can’t get enough
don’t want it in the rough
want you want it tough
got it on the hush
lay it down and blow the rush
I can’t let it go
can’t stop myself I know
let the rush get in my skull
now I want it more than don’t
I can’t get enough
wanna watch it grow
moving from head to toe
my body on the throws
I can’t get enough
want it like it rough
wanna watch it grow
lay down and see the show
I can’t get enough
can’t let it go too tough
got it on the hush
the real stuff that’s what’s up

As we once noticed

Let’s hope it rhymes
let’s hope it’s good at keeping time
let’s hope it looks
looks good in gold and white
let’s not delay
unless we’re tired and we can
let’s go for broke
instead of going with the band
let’s take of rules and when they don’t apply
let’s read the writing
the writings on walls that are not mine
this is the world
let’s celebrate before we’re gone
let’s hope for curls
let’s forget what we’ve done wrong
let’s drink to us remember we get to have fun
and when it’s over
let’s hope it rhymes as we once noticed

Hellscape

In this world of hell
we sing up ourselves well
we wind up making excuses
we don’t like truth
we mute them
we just want to be free
to destroy our dignity
to become what we are want
to be as bad as selfish mobs
we want to drink in pain and pleasure
we want to bathe in gold forever
in this world we wrought
we want to act as we aren’t wrong
we just do whatever we want
break it down till we get on
in this world that we have made
we will never take our true blame