Getting high

Gold dust getting high
clouds fall from the sky
hit the ground
hard they crash
denting earth with a smash
everything it shakes and shatters
gold dust turns to a sweet powder
all the green that paints their eyes
hits them slowly before they cry

Golden gears

The golden gears they turn
keep the longing heard
tick and tock-ing fast
ears can hardly catch
sounds so over barring
the world is sometimes scary
the golden gears keep turning
the heart always still yearning


I don’t take kindly to
how I’ve been living used
like an old rag you throw
broken no room to grow
cast me aside again
I don’t think that I like it
like to throw myself away
broken tried in pain
how I’ve been living used
thought it was my own truth
cast aside once again
I’m not the one they wanted


She said she loved me
right before she walked away
like I was ten feet in the grave
but thought I’d be okay
she said I meant the world to her
thought she was an honest girl
but the world meant very little
very little or so it would seem
she said she loved me
then walked away without me
holding onto lust abounding
all those thoughts consume so loudly
she wanted him this time so proudly
walked away this time without me
said she loved me but I doubt it
just another one she counted

Put it in the box

She cut me down once again
guess she’s still not over it
thought I’d be coming back around
thinking I’d be lost without her now
begging for that pink coin purse
asking for her to prove my worth
tell me that it wasn’t a lie
that you said yes not out of spite
not to hurt someone you really loved
but in the end you weren’t having fun
fate came in and took his head
you fell down true love now dead
broke my heart yes once again
she cuts me down like I’m the bad guy
she said yes then took my eyesight
put it in a box and cut me out
drew a circle so I can’t doubt
you used my love to hurt another
now he’s dead and your still not over
the thing we had that wasn’t real
you really thought I’d still play lover
pine after you like you could feel
put it in a box cause your not done yet
you think I’ll be coming back
I don’t think I like the act
but I’m the bad guy you still pine for
I’m the one you can’t get back
put it in a box like you moved on dear
a circle in the sky says you’re still wet

Break my heart

You sing just like a siren
calling out to him
you want to see me broken
because he chose me instead
you sing about his past
like you might be his future
like once he wounds to kill me
he’ll invite you out to dinner
you sing to him so sweetly
remind him I’m not you
but when he calls me a keeper
you know you know the truth
like everything he did
he did it yes to you
you are not the keeping kind
no you’re the one to leave
sorry that it wasn’t you
he gave the wedding ring
you sing about my heartbreak
like I didn’t win
I’m the one who got him
too forget the sin he lived
you sing just like a siren
but he’s not gonna drown
I’m the keeping kind dear
you’re just the one to lay it down

The other side

And I said enough is enough of the games that you play
can’t keep running on this path that you laid
all the stones here are jagged my feet have been flayed
and then you start to cry like I’m the one to blame
I know that I lied I know I did you wrong
but then you come right back you’re begging me to call
you tell me that you love me and you beg me just to stay
I tell you that you’re falling and that I should stay away
but then you start to text me keep on praying I’m okay
and still everybody’s thinking I’m the bad guy all the same
don’t know how many times you’ve told I’m the one that got away
every time we dance it’s like a perfect melody
and just at the right time it breaks down for the world to see
you will make another attempt to end this tragedy
say that I’m the monster put out all my dirty clothes
you say that I’m the wrong one but you text me just to post
and when I said goodbye to you you went away to cry
bleeding me with memories of what you give at night

Rather not

I’d rather not
no not really
I just don’t care
it’s just not interesting
I’d rather not
don’t say I did
let’s just be honest
I’m not interested
I’d rather not really give a damn
too much energy to lead the band
I’d rather not
no not really
I just don’t care
it’s really not interesting
you don’t matter
and now I see you never did
things just pass by
I don’t care disappear now
don’t reappear
I’d really rather not
I don’t really care
but I guess you must’ve forgot

Kill the pain

I’m sitting here just sipping whiskey
got the power to kill the pain
watching as he walks up closer
thinking he might get a taste
take him back to my place
ride him like I own his face
sitting just sipping whiskey
thinking about how I might bleed
he’s walking up and getting closer
I just drop down to my knees
got my mind all wet and wild
like the lipstick I pretend to steal
I wish I had a wild idea
but I finish my whiskey
and get the fuck out of here