Slow

Taking it slow
I don’t want to go
if I push to hard
I’ll fall apart
won’t take too long
to enter the dark
so I’m taking it slow
I just wanna survive
don’t want to fall back
thrive if I can
don’t want to let go
forget what I own
forget that
life’s worth living
the sun will rise
that I may be broken
but I’m living this life
I’m taking it slow
don’t want to let go
don’t want to stop trying
just want to be alive again
so I’m taking it slow
so I can see the sun and then
keep taking it slow
live one day at a time
keep moving on
keep living this life
don’t want to let go
just want to survive
maybe even thrive
because this is my life

#Iamnotokay

I am not okay
want you to know today
the painful truth of self
how i let myself down
didn’t speak the pain
refused to say the name
said the truth must be
that i cut myself baby
I’ll show you as if it’s art
cry tears that are hard to start
about why I’m always afraid
but i can work today
share my pain as though it’s yours
hurt the world with my last word
I am not okay
because I could never say
the name or how I felt
how i let myself down
I cut myself today
triggered others with my pain
don’t sell a proper way out
show beauty in pain right now
the beauty in tragedy
though self mutilation be
a horrid act of self
I am not okay
but this is my hell
I didn’t speak when spoken to
if this is happening to you
speak out and do not mince
words that stick to lips
force screams and let them know
you aren’t okay don’t let go
cutting is not beauty
scars remind us truly
that ignoring our own pain
breaks us of our name
don’t glorify that scene
with pictures meant to be
beautifully framed art without a game
scars and cuts they are the same
as what nobody needs
you share a picture please
remember what it means
that pain is not beauty
there’s no strength in being a victim
survival is much different
then living and learning to thrive
a victim is not how you strive
don’t glorify your scars
your pain is not who you are
I live my life in fear
overcome it live my dears
don’t allow the rich to bleed
bleed unto you baby
just lift yourself back up
even if you cut
don’t glorify that pain
glorify the strength that comes
by admitting you need help
by leaving victimhood for health

Participation

Participation-
congratulations you were there,
participation-
congratulations you tried.
You may not be wonderful
you may not be adept
you just showed up because-
participation.
Congratulations-
you tried,
came in last this time
got your trophy and pride
didn’t win the race
but you got second to last place
a trophy on your mantel,
a kiss upon your cheek,
participate and find
all the validation that you seek.
You can’t be a winner
to win is just too gloat
participation is the only way
build it up so they don’t try
we made the world better
by letting aptitude slide.

knowledge is power

Take a lesson
make it quick
this one
you should not forget
pay attention
get it right
soon you’ll need this
simple guide
soon you’ll have to go
and try
try your best to stay alive
turn and run you may just die
listen up to learn to thrive
if you don’t you won’t survive
but we see it in your eyes
you can’t listen
hardly speak
you’ll have nightmares
before we reap