American Benefits

I don’t have a drug problem
I don’t have a baby
what I have are bills to pay
with no assistance to save me.
I pay into benefits
they don’t offer me anyway.
I am not a junkie or a single mom
if I were today most my problems would be gone
if I came illegally or was a refugee
the government would provide me
money to get onto my feet
but I have lived a good life
I’ve been responsible
I gave my life to social work
but could be without a home
I have worked my whole to make it comfortable
I have given up my mind
and now I’m on my own.
Never thought my country
would turn out not to be my home
a place where all my labor
turns out to be on loan
for someone very different
to make it all their own.
No, I have lived a good life
but now I’m on my knees
there is nothing left in a country
filled with thieves
we protect all others
leaving good citizens to bleed.

Hey Demi

Talk about mental illness
while you laughin’ makin’ millions
don’t play at being business-
just a product of the system.
Just another know it all
tell your story, bathe in glory.
Bipolar with a bank account
much different then disabled and out.
You still working double time?
I’m just kidding
you haven’t worked in your whole life
Barney and friends then Disney channel
actors work but it don’t hold a candle
to pushing that paper
and makin’ them pennies
I’d be better off if my symptoms didn’t prevent me!
Living with this madness
has taken fuckin’ everything-
and I’m not just talking about
Can’t work with this broken mind
lost my dignity, lost my time.
Can’t get treatment-still standing in line.
You may know the pain but you’ve got the money to get by-
try living with mental illness
when your symptoms keep you
from providing for your life.
Suicide much sweeter
when you can’t afford the pills
the highs and lows not treated
bringing trauma at the heels
you got sent to rehab
the rest get sent to jail.
I used to be a social worker
now unemployed and ill.
Fight the fucking stigma?
How ’bout paying my bills.