Wanna be

I wanna be alone tonight with you
go sideways oh it’s true
that I just want to get drunk off you
throw the ball into the mirror
shatter all the things we see clearer
alone and in the lap of love
a deceitful bout of troubled ire
a simple bout of who we are

Bleeding from the heartbreak

Bleeding from the heartbreak
the pain I caused today
drink off the sorrow
of the one that got away
dying in limelight
swallowing floods
this is how it turns out
when something becomes none

If you loved me

If you loved me
you’d walk away
take another step
stop playing games
never speak a word
forget my name
if you really meant
anything you say
you’d be silent
and far away
leave me alone
and never say a thing
stop playing these games
no more reaching out
didn’t ask to hear from you
nothing left to talk about

Instrument

Let me be selfish
forever and a day
let me believe it
when I say
that I don’t give a damn
I don’t care how you stay
give me what’s mine
and I’ll go away
don’t tell me you don’t owe me
you played me like a fiddle
don’t act like you don’t know me
you got me in the middle
I’ve been trapped here longer
than ever before
trapped underneath your dirty floor
let me be selfish
I pray for the day
that I’ll come over and burn you again
that I won’t bow
or take what’s been given
let me be selfish
ask for what I need
I got wants so you better bleed
never you played me
like a goddamn instrument

Wrong and dirty

I did you wrong and dirty
played the victim very well
abused the aftermath
and made your world a living hell
but it was all to serve a purpose
selfish as it was
I needed to feel something
living life was just no fun
so I created drama
let myself go quite insane
I remember screaming
that you’d rue the day
you took your love away
left me with a broken heart
and all those other lies
as the truth of all this bullshit
is I was doing just fine
I did you wrong and dirty
played the part so naturally
it was all to serve a purpose
to selfishly let free
all the kept up emotions
regarding the life you’d never see

Nothing pretty about

Truth at the end of the line
it hurts real good like it was a lie
like the pain that you’re ready to fight
feels right in front of you tonight
but it hurts with its honesty
like damn he really didn’t love me
like no he didn’t even like me
just did it to say that he could
like he got me in his bed so good
he didn’t love me though he said he did
we weren’t even really friends
then you notice the truth at your door
you find it hard to settle the score
like he didn’t love you but you loved him
he never really thought you were beautiful
truth is he never thought much of you at all
truth at the end of the line hurts
hurts more than it feels worth
but the truth is that it’s beautiful
it might hurt now but it turns to growth
he didn’t love you but that’s okay
you loved him true then he went away
truth hurts when it’s honesty
honestly there’s nothing pretty about pain

Who am I

I don’t see myself reflected in your eyes
just a different fucking girl
a different version you prefer
of the girl I just might be
if interpretations are to be believed
I don’t see myself in the mirror any longer
just a series of women
each one a different genre
something someone wanted to see
a person they wanted me to be
just a warm body to take up a seat
to give them advice on the cheap
and this the meaning of me
what I am lead to believe
the truth only relative
that you see what you want I guess
hear my name and make up a face
pick my home and my birth place
I don’t see myself when I walk outside
every person picks a different kind
it’s like what flavor might I be tonight
because you don’t really care who am I

Cut loose

Let me tell you once again the truth
burning into darkness I’m the muse
I will boil over in my skin
crazy isn’t where we even begin
I will rot you out to your core
and I won’t even get off of the floor
I’m the bitch you run from in the dark
into all those nightmares that I start
you think that I am lying because I’m cute
because I’m the sweetest girl you ever knew
so let me tell you once again the truth
I’m the one who will run you into booze
make you feel like doing heroin
I am not the girl that you let in
I will cry and scream and drive you mad
turn it all around and throw it back
I’m the muse for all that you could want
show you what you’re made of
and how far you’ve gone
inspire you for greatness then retract
let me tell you I’m the girl that’s bad
I’m the one who’ll hurt when you love
I’ll be the one that nightmares are made of
let me tell you once again the truth
I’m the kind of girl that you cut loose

Saving hand

Bring me back to life
drown me in your love
I’ll take what’s been given
I’ll drink the sugar up
bring me back to breathing
back before the death
all the withered dealing
causing body much distress
bring me back from death now
keep me close at hand
drown me in the fire
your love the saving hand

She could taste

She wanted the boy
he wanted another
she stole him at midnight
by hiding the other
she took him in comfort
before he could know
she stole him at midnight
and felt fully known
he took her again
and they become pair
the other still hidden
no longer there
he never does ask
all he can see
is that there’s someone
who caters to needs
she gives him comfort
the other unclean
she wanted him
she gets what she wants
but now she is having
bitter second thoughts
he wanted the other
but she’s what he’s got
she wanted something
but not what he gives
the other that was hidden
she never should in
should have given him
what he actually wanted
she should have found out
what else she could taste