Yesterday’s sin

I paid a price
I wasn’t right
took the wrong road home tonight
can’t find my bed
I’ve lost my head
drunk off what might have been
I paid the price for lies I’ve told
sold myself and lost it all
drowned in what had never been
a bleak tomorrow
yesterday’s sin

The black

You wanna go to the black
to the devil and speak
you wanna conquer the world
never ever be meek
you wanna walk in the shadows
a demon on each arm
you want to roll with the darkness
live life on the cards
but you don’t know the price dear
you don’t know the cost
the price of the darkness
isn’t what you once thought
you think that it’s pretty
until you look at your hands
can’t wash them clean
can’t get out of the black

Now looks like hell

Breaking free of suffering
the price of living luxury
safety comes at cost you see
comes with a price
and burns your dreams
breaking free of suffering
cost more than you think it means
cost you all the living things
feeling experience how you breathe
you won’t hurt but never live
never dream just drink the punch
breathing comes but not to lungs
you just live inside a shell
the world once known
now looks like hell

Take it

Everybody take it
get on your knees and say
thank you for the raping
the violence that you gave
everybody smile
smile for the camera
take what you are given
the satisfying thrill
take it like you wanted it
like you do most everyday
be too afraid to shout out
or ever ever say
this isn’t what I wanted
this is not why I payed
now say thank you to the rapist
the violent and crude
say thank you to your abuser
the ones you gave in to
say thank you for your beating
and remember to smile wide
because you never ever complained
that the price was too very high
everybody take it
get on your knees tonight
you couldn’t get the courage
to either hide or fight
so take what you’ve been given
by living suicide
hang off the noose still breathing
as you pay to slowly die

Celebrities

Let me breathe
exhale inhale kinda thing
let me believe
I’m just a normal human being
a regular person
because I’m human am I not
did I do something
maybe something I forgot
and then it doesn’t hit you
not like it should in reality
that you ain’t normal
you ain’t a regular nobody
celebrity burns into your skin
you got the richest of the sins
you lose a lot to have it all
you lost the ordinary before the fall
let me breathe?
You don’t get a chance to say
because we own you
you ain’t like us though you play
you wish you were normal
had bills you need to pay
but it’s so much easier
easier when you get your way
and yeah you’re human
but that only means so much
you ain’t just living or scraping by
you got the ability to live the dream
and yeah money don’t buy happiness
and yeah you can still open up and bleed
but you ain’t like us
not a regular average nobody
you a star so high up
you lost what makes you like the rest
exhale and inhale
take another gold plated breath
take it in deep
and put more diamonds on your chest
because money don’t buy happiness
oh no it don’t
but you gave up normal
to be in the heavens oh so woke
you light up the sky
you ain’t down here like all the rest
you ain’t getting by
even if your mind is such a mess
you don’t know us
like you say we don’t know you
so ask again to let you breathe
exhale inhale kinda thing
but remember what you gave up
to live amongst the stars
you gave it up
you don’t get to take it back
you aren’t a regular average nobody tonight
you gave that up
so light our sky all up so right
glitter like gold because that’s what we want to see
you gave up normal so you could be a celebrity

We need to do better

We need to do better-
no, shit.
We need to do better-
than quit!
We need to do better-
but we just keep talking
we just keep walking
away.
We need to do better-
just stop!
We need to do better
it’s all talk,
won’t name the problem
just walk
act all remorseful
but don’t
don’t name the problem
we won’t.
We need to do better-
yes,
name the fucking problem
and then
change the way you think
and let
let the truth set in
we protect those that commit
acts of child of molestation,
child rapist and then
we need to do better-
yes.
We protect adults the best
keep the monsters living
and tell the children
they’re healing.
We need to do better,
we forget who we are
we used to love children
but those moments are gone-
feed them to demons
protect what is wrong
we need to do better
but we do not see
we take the steps
to look away
facing the problem
we must maintain
look at the devil
say it’s real name
then sacrifice the ones
who commit to evil
we need to do better
we really do
we need to do more
than just say that we do.

Bought broken bones

Bones are broken
time is lost
we’ve wandered
the desert
through the water-
the drought
drinking the sand grains
washing with sun
blisters on skin
the damage is done
broken are the bones
in wrists and in neck
hands rendered useless
I long to forget
but my feet keep on forward
through this hell I have wrought
I simply woke up here
this hell my new home
I never knew purchase
but I bought what I own.