posers

Look at all the drug kids posing
looking like they're insane 
and they know it
got to crush that little pill
smoke that 
make it real
for them to get real loose 
for them to feel the room
like oh man I got problems
say they take shit just to solve 'em
but when they're sober 
they don't got 'em
all they're problems they've made up
caused by drinking all their day up
by snorting what they got in lines
just to say they like to get high
but they're just posing 
and I know it
I get high just by showing
up too early or a little too late
I get crazy because it's Tuesday
look at all the junkies strutting 
taking shit to say their something
posing just to feel real crazy
man I think that's so damn lazy
I get high at the drop of dime
my mind crazy don't got no lines
you be posing like you're insane
but I'll slit your throat without any cocaine

The gaze

I saw you watching me
from across the room
chandelier lit the view
the crowd it parted 
because of your gaze 
the marble floor 
it took our breath away
the rose fell to my lips
supreme 
and all at once
I forgot to speak

Bleed it

Bleed it out
once again
the black tissue
and all that sin
the green grin
and the red lipstick
bleed it out
and take it in
lace and satin
let it win
black silk stockings
on his door
you keep screaming
wanting more
this whole thing
it was a bore
but then again
bleed it out once more

New breed

Get off of me
just leave me alone
can't keep screaming
can never go home
the door's wide open
but my eyes are shut
hands won't keep reaching
mouth isn't speaking
get off of me
leave me alone
I don't have family
I don't have a home
lost all my friends
some years ago
got to this place
desperately alone
don't want to talk now
don't want to scream
just back up off me
I know what I need
a warm place to sleep
and something to eat
my hands won't keep reaching
I'm always alone
I guess I'm much crazier
than I thought before
lost all the pieces
that puzzles turned red
lost all my balance
it was off with my head
get the fuck off me
if you knew me when
because I'm just quite fine here
I like my new bed

Pretty little

Pretty little tulips
funny little things
waxy little petals
fragile little things
burn them with a cinder
watch the flame with pride
burning oleanders
never felt quite right
burn the pretty tulips
fields of pure fools gold
burn the red ones first
so the purple ones won't know
watch as the flames dance
so quickly they turn to ash
blackened like the seed
the things we took for weeds
glass within the soil 
we cried before it was over
pretty little tulips
pretty little things
lost within the fire 
with all the other weeds

Just a dream

I'm feeling the words goodbye today
don't have the power to make you stay
calling out for help never worked
you weren't there 
you're just a jerk
and when I put myself to sleep
I remember even you 
were just a dream

Violent images

Violent dreams lay fast asleep
trapped inside my skull
blood and flesh all ripped apart
waiting for my soul
taking pieces of me as they come
ripping me apart in a flood
violent sudden images
things I can't unsee
they follow me while waking 
and they never let me dream

Like me

Looking back 
is looking forward 
at least to someone like me
can't keep a secret
not in that chair
talk about what's never there
a knock a twist a lock of mint 
I wonder where my foot has slipped
drunk again off glass and ash 
the smoke I cough doesn't match
looking forward is looking back
the path created can't react 
future faces
and smiles turn round
everything comes out in clouds 
at least to someone like me
can't keep a secret
can't keep a thief
locked up or on my knees
I see signs of disbelief
the Antichrist so hard to see
expect for someone just like me

No fun

The woman that I wanted
walked right out on me
left me by a corner
no new thoughts to bleed
she left me with a longing
bitters on the tongue
I remember something
under covers was no fun

Sick of

I'm sick of being sick
of always being tired
of thinking of these thoughts
drowning babies in the fire
don't know where to go
don't want to keep on running
legs so very sore
I've spent up all my money
drowned in disregard 
and dried up on the shore 
It's never getting sunny 
just grey and lacking warmth