Forever awed

Didn’t care until I was gone
thought I’d be with you all along
like a dog without a say
like you’d just keep getting paid
didn’t care that I could’ve died
you just smiled that smile of lies
like you really gave a damn
thought you had me throat in hand
didn’t care until I walked away
thought you’d always have the right away
like I’d pay your bills straight from the grave
but you took too much and I left the bank
didn’t care until I was gone
thought I’d never turn it off
like I hadn’t once before
you thought me weak again for sure
didn’t care because I let you in
but now the house is all but burnt
you thought I would stay but I’ve learnt
it’s gone and everything’s empty
you try hard but never forget me
now I’m gone and you wish I wasn’t
but I ain’t here to pay off a little or nothing
for the debt you built so very high up
your pain my very new triumph
thought I’d stay out of obligation
but now my responsibilities ain’t weighted
didn’t care that I could’ve died
now I’m gone and you asking why
shut the door the banks all closed up
got nothing for the beggars and locusts
didn’t care until I was gone
so now you miss me forever in awe

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Hard work

They say they work hard
and maybe they do
but do you believe
you owe them to
like you paid in advance
and after the meal
didn’t get a whole plate
but you paid for the feels
they say they work hard
and maybe they do
but if you pay double
what is the truth
do they deserve more
or are you a fool
pay for the performance
but they don’t perform for you
stifled creativity sorry ass excuses
is this entertainment
or a house of useless muses

Burning roses

I’m burning roses now
and I ain’t coming down
got no dollar bills
but I’m floating proud
people be looking at me
like I’m so damn lost
but these dreams are happening
no matter the cost
I got my own pen in my hand now
and a voice that I’m using
gonna make my own way
and I’m never pursuing
the past that undid me
when I was living my life
everybody was saying
I was doing it right
had everything wrapped up
in a nice little bow
all my fucking chaos
yeah that shit explode
I can’t do nine to five now
my degree don’t mean nothing
I’m living the life now
that makes me feel something
I’m burning the garden
and feeling so good
you thought that you controlled me
I think you misunderstood
you never did see me
but you took all I had
left me with bad credit
and no fucking cash
had a nervous breakdown
but now I’m not even sad
I’m writing the next chapter
I’m changing the story
you took all I had even the glory
so now I’m crawling upwards
from this dirty floor
everybody might be talking mess
but I’m aiming to soar

Seven simple arbitrary numbers

I love you
don’t you understand
you are
like my biggest fan
I adore you
even though we’ve never met
I know you
and all about your circumstance
do you want me
tell me everything
that you got off me
like a little birdie I sing softly
so don’t you ever speak just listen
when I’m talking
you want me
I love you oh so much
and now we’re walking
you’re like my biggest fan
don’t you understand
cause you still want me
as I shove you off a cliff
you’re falling
falling faster than I can catch
just keep calling and calling
I love you
even though we’ve never met
you’re like my biggest fan
I won’t forget
but then again we’ve never met
I love you
but more so I just love the checks

Me time

Everybody so hungry
they starving
they got needs
everybody wants safety
the ability to sleep
everybody got demons
and bills to pay
everybody living
ain’t exactly the same
when you worship idols
the ground may walk away
everybody so hungry
so thirsty for something
for money, adventure
for true love honey
everybody wants a good life
living in luxury just fine
everybody wants something
so good
it’s just coming
everybody wants something
starving for that money
for that moment they can shine
watching pretty pictures
blowing delusions in spare time

Show folks and carni kids

Put it in perspective
put it your mind
that everything is different
from various other sides
do you have a blanket
or even just a couch?
Do you own a car or
have a pool to test out?
Sometimes you never see
the things that do exist
if you’ve ever owned a monkey
I’m tired of your shit
every tear that’s shed
is a tear for us to drink
your mental health has cost
and you can afford that shrink
so cry me a fucking river
and fill that river with cash
if I should feel sorry for Justin Bieber
I should get paid for that
perspective changes lots of things
turning entertainers into kings
we forget what show folk means
just carni kids that are paid to sing
so sing for me and accept your bed
if your life sucks-you’ve chosen it.

Anti is the new pink

Grimes what a little girl
oh how she loves the world
oh an anti-capitalist
she knows how lucky she is
that fans
don’t really understand
that if
she’s truly an anti capitalist
that she
she’d be doing this
for free
and don’t you say
she has to make a living
you can stay
off the grid away from doing
what you hate
and so passionately
want to destroy
but see she’s playing
with her toys
she’s got a bank account
and cashes checks to pay the bills
she’s investigated
all her boyfriend’s union deals
pretend is fine
but when you take it
quite this far
oh yes you are
a hypocrite in clothe and garb
it’s all the same
you are the company you keep
lovers that you seek
you are an extension of these
because we are
we are what we surround
he hasn’t left this ground-but
my boyfriends like so cool now.

The audience

Let’s all put our hands together
get real loud cheering to the letter
we made gods out of cotton tethers
not hard when you lose the measures
of right.
Let’s all put our heads together
find the means to weather out this storm
our survival born from treason to the floor
mourning bodies kept this time to whore
rake the money in this time we scored
whores that pose as gods in which we trust
let’s put our hands together
we have lost this time forever
let’s move on from this the bodies we gave up
let’s stop mourning and this cheering of nothing much
just figure out this time it’s been enough
goodbye to this the present past we sunk.

In the interesting universe of Selena Gomez

And she said I don’t know him
I don’t know about that situation
so I just separate-
I separate the pedophile
from the work it’s true
even though it’s in his title
he directs my every move
I just play a part you see
I don’t know-no not a damn thing,
don’t you think the universe
is interesting?
It’s interesting how I claim to
believe in God
it’s interesting that I speak of
justice at all
but even though it’s a long known secret-
one in which we know
no one’s been keeping-
bring up the news of today
and then just say
I separate-
he’s an abuser but I took the job
he’ll get critical acclaim
but I’ll separate my part
pretend that my silence isn’t supporting
pedophilia at all

Ants vs Wasps

We are not equal
not one in the same
you see the difference
is not as innate
as in skin color, or
the way that you pray
the difference is in
how you get paid
you’ve got the bling bling
I’ve got the pain.
We are not equal
not one in the same
you can afford the lies
on display
you don’t know the difference
living day to day
you don’t know the meaning
of living just for pay
you don’t know the meaning
of working poor or debt
you don’t know the truth
behind your politics.