Love me

Love me
love me
please just tell me you do
I’m desperate for something to hold on too
I need more than emptiness
need more than words
I thought you loved me so why does it hurt
you gave me life brought me to this world
but you walked away proving my worth
love me
oh love me
please say that you do
even if it’s a lie I don’t care about the truth
I know that you don’t just say it please
so I know what it sounds like to hear something sweet
love me please love me
oh what did I do
you say that you need me but that’s nothing new
fill me with expectations kept far away
tell me you love me
I’m not asking you to stay

Melt my soul

Goodbye my darling
it’s time for me to go
don’t cry my darling
your tears could melt my soul
I know that your hurting
that’s why I have to leave
goodbye my lover
please forget about me
it’s time for me to go now
time to say goodbye
I don’t want to hurt you
I no longer want to lie
goodbye my dearest darling
don’t cry for me tonight
your tears could melt my snow
drown everything we figured out
stop ourselves from growth

Grips

Back hand me once again
I don’t think it’s much like sin
keep it coming I know me
the pattern that I want not see
slap me down and keep me over
under headboards and in clovers
I don’t think it’s all that bad
keep me in the grip of hands
I don’t like the utterings
keep those fists all over me
if it hurts I know it’s love
keep me in the grips above

Think I’m

Think I’m crying cause I miss you
think I’m going half insane
missing the hell you brought me
missing all that pain
I keep screaming darling
I keep asking please
think that I’m going crazy
missing all the tears I bleed
then it all gets clearer
while I look through the smoke
I don’t miss all the pain
I miss the ending of the joke
the part where we’re all laughing
acting like a family
think I’m going crazy
missing all that abuse
then when the smoke gets thick
I know I know the truth
think that I’m moving faster
moving far from you
think that I’m making progress
think it’s another breakthrough

Feel me

Never forget me
never move on
I’ll keep on writing
the same old damn song
singing of life like I’m moving forward
got you on my mind
the crazy getting bolder
feel me again
when you’re touching her skin
when you got babies
I hope you remember
the way that I tasted back in December
got you still dreaming I hope that it’s me
never forget the words you didn’t mean
I’ll always love you
though I claim that I don’t
I’ll always want you with my hands on your throat

Collections

She said she loved me
right before she walked away
like I was ten feet in the grave
but thought I’d be okay
she said I meant the world to her
thought she was an honest girl
but the world meant very little
very little or so it would seem
she said she loved me
then walked away without me
holding onto lust abounding
all those thoughts consume so loudly
she wanted him this time so proudly
walked away this time without me
said she loved me but I doubt it
just another one she counted

Deepest regrets

Deepest regrets my darling
so sorry I couldn’t stay
so much time has been passing
so much you had to say
deepest regrets my lovely
you just missed my call
I think I’ve had enough though
of apologies gone wrong
so I think I’ll be walking
keep on moving far away
I don’t really care my darling
what you’ve got left to say
this is not real important
at least not to me
no longer the one you call for
deepest regrets honey

Stay

I thought I could run from you
thought I could hide
like I’d be wrong again
though I know when I’m right
that all my focused judgements
in the end are all lies
I thought I could run from you
but I got trapped in the light
the warmth of your hands
and the taste of your lips
never thought it could feel like this
like I could feel home and free all the same
I thought I could run run to the pain
get caught for a moment
kiss you in the rain
but I was so wrong dear
can’t run away
I thought I could run
but you wouldn’t chase
you knew all along that I wanted to stay

Put it in the box

She cut me down once again
guess she’s still not over it
thought I’d be coming back around
thinking I’d be lost without her now
begging for that pink coin purse
asking for her to prove my worth
tell me that it wasn’t a lie
that you said yes not out of spite
not to hurt someone you really loved
but in the end you weren’t having fun
fate came in and took his head
you fell down true love now dead
broke my heart yes once again
she cuts me down like I’m the bad guy
she said yes then took my eyesight
put it in a box and cut me out
drew a circle so I can’t doubt
you used my love to hurt another
now he’s dead and your still not over
the thing we had that wasn’t real
you really thought I’d still play lover
pine after you like you could feel
put it in a box cause your not done yet
you think I’ll be coming back
I don’t think I like the act
but I’m the bad guy you still pine for
I’m the one you can’t get back
put it in a box like you moved on dear
a circle in the sky says you’re still wet

The bad joke

I’m just a joke baby
a thing you make to breathe
the kind of girl you dreamed up last night
I know what I am
yes I know what you planned
the night you bought me for cheap
they would have given me for free
it’s just another night in your cold arms
this kind of love is doing me harm
I’m tangled in your web
you got my soul
my head
you got the life I breathe
you know I mean something
but only to you
only to you do I have value
I’d killed myself if I knew how to bleed
I don’t think you really understand me
I know what I am
and I know what you planned
and I disagree
you don’t got what I need
you thought you’d hold me up
keep me in your cuffs
drinking from your cup
like I love this stuff
oh baby you don’t know me
but you will see
I’m gonna burn it all
gonna make you fall
it’s just another cold night
you can hold me real tight
and when I say goodbye
you’ll know you won’t wake again