In the flesh

The darkness consuming
all in my head
the thoughts keep on dawning
I’m drowning again
the free form and thought
has put me to bed
everything hurts
when your trapped in your flesh

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Pack rat

My brain don’t work so well no more
it’s cluttered like my floor
I can’t see my carpet nor the door
I’m waiting for the storm to stop
it’s quiet but no room to talk
no room to think more than once
can’t see can’t hear don’t know my name
my brain got lost along the way
and every piece of drunk decay
keeps it molded and still grey
the pain it won’t ever go away
my brain don’t work so well no more
I’m drunk and cluttered on the floor
everything is boxes filled
I’m hurting but I can not think
I’m dreaming now my visions weak

This ride

She screams inside
the thoughts have clouded her mind
it burns, it hurts, to think so much
and the screaming clogs the ears and such
the body moves to thoughts that steal
every moment, no time to heal
for visions build and she’s been misled
her screams have swallowed up her head
dreams don’t comfort during these reds
the worlds she visits end with tides
floods of roses often thyme
and everything will be just fine
keep the screaming inside this time

24/7

Yes, I’m afraid
afraid of nearly everything
my heart it screams
naturally it’s haunting me
it aches and moans
I feel fear in my soul
it’s so much more
than just a panic-this is
full blown
I’m awake
but dreaming is a nightmare
just like life
my eyelids shut
but I don’t feel right
it’s not a dream, no this
this is reality
and I am terrified
of sights, and sounds
and movements
a child laughs
and I am horrified
irrational as it must seem
my mind it works in constant agony
I’m afraid of everything
even when I know
there’s no reason to be.

Cannot forget

I hear screams
and see visions
of things that are
beyond unpleasant
everyday my brain
is plagued
with nightmares
that bleed to day
I hear screams
and see visions
of trauma that I
cannot forget

Wake me when I’m not dreaming

Wetter and wetter
between the thighs
growing impulse
something isn’t right
got another dripping
down the side
this is just another
nine to five
wetter, ever wetter
my oh my
I’m about to eat candy
midnight delight

A few of my favorite things

Shake the cat out of the tree
break the child at the knee
poison the flowers and kill the bees
the truth is in destructions plea
come whatever, come what may
take the opening in grey
wade the chances and take the bribe
burn all the bridges, sell all your pride

Nightmares

I don’t know what I’m crying for
I just know I’m dying on the floor
moaning and sighing
this heart aches for more
but it’s gone now
it’s gone now
the feeling I was holding
it’s gone now
and I don’t have a cure for sobbing
it’s gone now I’m broken
but it’s not alright
no beauty here, no tragic light
no candle dinners this time tonight
I don’t know what I’m crying for
don’t know why my heart is sore
why every bone is breaking
or why my hands are shaking
I don’t know what’s wrong with me
another breakdown another bad dream

whispers

I guess it’s nothing
nothing but the bottom
the bottom of the hole we dug
given up-have we begun?
I don’t have the answer yet
but I will smile
and I will forget
then it comes-another day
everything’s fine-I am okay.