Drunk off being human

Too drunk off being human
I can’t let go of influence
can’t stop thinking of the masterpiece
I’ll make,
like it will just materialize
one day,
out of nothing my magnum opus fate,
a miracle on ice so aptly named
too drunk off being human to be sane
can’t think of how to fix this day dreaming
or understand just what I am doing
thinking it into reality
existence of my thoughts oh can’t it be
without me putting in a single thing
like time or space or the least bit energy
too drunk off being human to see straight
to realize if I don’t do it won’t take
that I must get to work this time today
instead of thinking what will be some way
if I don’t get it done it will not be
too drunk off being human to believe
this could ever be about me

What’s love? 2018

Love,
does not require
anything, but work
love is more than desire-
it is a job well worth
and when we say goodbye
and think only of ourselves
we never really loved
we just masterbated well.

I also

I also have suffered
I also have pain
if you have a cold
well remember that day?
The day that I also
had a cold as you do
remember that I also
suffer as you.
I also have been
abused and mistreated
I also have experienced
the agony you speak of
I also felt anger at unjust hands
I also had a bagel
this morning with jam
I also have a dog, a cellphone
and a sock
I also have problems
the same problems you got
but mine are much worse
because
I also matter
my problems you see
I also deem sadder.

Lena and the sacrificial Lamby

Only the best mothers do
what it is that you would not
you see protecting you from harm
might mean they harm a lot
for when the day is done
and all her resources gone
you will end up returned
to where you truly belong.
All the money in the world
a shelter a better home
a dog is just a toy you see
not a child born
but Lena Dunham flips the script
a different recollection
of abusive events
before and after snap shot tense
she claims trainers, lessons and money spent,
but four years of training-
never a muzzle?
no, this loving mother
thought it too much trouble
to give her little Lamby
anymore attention
so she did what we now must
give a little mention
back to where he came from
that is where she sent him
just a special chance
at a postnatal abortion.

Dead name

Hush-don’t say that name
you have lost that person today
they don’t stand here-
we’re not the same.

Please-don’t say that name
it reminds me of my shame
I have grieved much more than you
you could never feel as I do.

Hush-don’t say that name
I lost everything today
you, you’re not the same
you bring up my deepest shame
you have placed me with the blame
I just cannot hear that name.

Please… don’t say that name
please don’t say I look the same
why am I so damn ashamed?
you ask questions to break my frame
literal-the words are violence
say that name it’s dead to my lips.

Hush! Don’t say that name
they have died, but I remain
you will love me just the same
replace them in your memory
with old thoughts of what you see
play along and don’t you grieve
the name is dead, but I’m still me.

Sweet cherry pie

Cherry pies
til we die
feed the hunger
make it shine
we are corpses
so divine
sucking down their
storylines
we sell souls
for marigolds
and tout that supper
till we’re gold
cherry pies
and
life on ice
we kill ourselves
just to survive.

All the likes

I find stupid funny
liking shit absurd
you think that your smarter
because you invent new words
you claim enlightenment
while preaching your ignorance
keep screaming like it’s working
and ignore the reality as is.
I find stupid funny
because you’ve got to laugh-
all the value we’ve placed on
this ignorant trash.
I exist in my place
which you’ll never comprehend
because ignorance and stupidity
have surely buttered your bread.