Finding the taste

Tasty and yummy
it’s so delicious now
now that I can eat
eat without the sound
the sound of my mind
screaming not to eat
everything looks better
now that I can feed
no more thinking awful
when looking at a treat
I can pick up the fork now
and not really grieve
I don’t want to cry now
when I take a bite
I don’t think of vomiting
in the middle of the night
tasty and so yummy
now that I’ve found you
an interest in the process
of cooking up the food

When you ask them not to

Even if you tell them
they’ll never forget to say
You look so good,
so thin, so good-
you look so beautiful-
so damn good.
You’ve lost weight
but have you ate?
Before you answer
just let me say
you’ve never looked
so beautiful
you’ve never looked
so good at all.
You feel better-don’t you?
You feel good-now say it!
Say you feel better-
say you feel good-
don’t you feel healthier-
I knew that you would,
say that you feel good
say you feel better
say you feel great
no matter the case.
You’ve become thinner
so you must be safe
I asked you if you’d eaten
but you didn’t say
I look so good,
so fucking lovely,
didn’t I say
I’m anorexic, honey?