No more yearning

Longing for a new life
a way to get a new stride
to look outside inside
and find myself tonight
to wake up with a new life
a new way to be so high
bright and everything burning
a heart that’s given up yearning
and this longing faraway
for a new life and new face

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She cheated

She cheated
she lied
she said that she loved him
she cheated
she lied
she said she’d always want him
but she ran around
with every boy in town
and left him crying all alone.
Other girls they cheered
it really hurt my ears
to hear all that applause for his tears.
She cheated
she lied
she said that she loved him
and now that he’s gone
she’s taking another
a lover to who she’ll still be untrue
and the other girls cheer her on
they cheer her on yes they do.
She cheated
she lied
she said she’d always want him
but she ran around
and now he’s alone
and the crowd keeps on cheering
the girls are on one side
and I’ve lost my hearing
she cheated
she lied
she treated him badly
but the girls they still cheer
they cheer wild and madly.
She cheated
she lied
and we wonder why boys cry
when we leave
after all the hurt we so sweetly bring.
She cheated
she lied
and the boys they now avoid her
and the girls they wonder why
they no longer adore her
cause she cheated
she lied
she said that she loved them
but she didn’t
and they know it
and now they’re gone.

We want it

We want the then now
we want the now then
we want it all at once
so we can play pretend
we want to be so young
so stupid innocent
we want all the knowledge
that lacks with it
we want all or nothing
but everything’s involved
we want the then now
we want the now then
we want everything
all at once
so we can play pretend
we want it now
now before it’s gone
we want it all together
all at once
we want it all
so messed up
we want the then now
we want the now then
we want it all at once
so we can act profound

Begin again

Drop the pretense
let it grow
the vines that wrap you
bind and choke
drop the concepts
let them fall
out of existence
and into the flames
drop the pretense
make the trade
breathe the air in
dry the lungs
keep the flesh soft
bury the mud
keep the heart beating
cut death away
sleep while still dreaming
as if your youth stayed

What we’ve lost

Pastel colors plastic cars
everything a work of art
the world we dream in
the world we sought
a world on fire
true love forgot
plastic covers metal doors
thirsty for what is more
more than plastic
more than this
dreams of worlds less ignorant
in plastic hearts we find no love
just simple pleasures
no one above
everything a work of art
no trying here just what’s forgot

I need this

I need this to be real
to validate how I feel
to keep me in the right
to know I’ve lost no sight
I need this nightmare to bleed
bleed into reality
to be right in front of me
I need this to be real
I need to know it’s right to feel
to see oppression and pain
even on a good bright day
to be miserable because I know
know the world is letting go
I need this to be real
need to validate how I feel
to know that I am right
even though my truth is a lie
I need this to be truth
no matter how obtuse
I need it to be true
I need to know I’m better than you
that I am right and know much better
that this reality is tethered
to the nightmares I need to be real
even if it’s painful wounds can’t heal
I need this to be real
for me
doesn’t mean that I can’t see
only that I am right believe
I need this to be real
I need this to have happened
I need to know I’m right
that indeed I’m fighting the good fight

She is

She is
everything you want to be
she is
everything you want to see
who you want to feel on me
she is what you do believe
so far away
little clean dreams
innocent as kitten cream
she is what you want to be
phrases descriptions who she is
you want to bleed
to let her in
she is
everything you want to be
a dream in skin so fresh
so clean

We’re all complicit

We’re all complicit
when our heroes turn out wrong
we want that brand new song
yes we all will sing along
we’re all dismissive
because we don’t want to give up
we want what we want
it’s far too hard to sacrifice
we want the difference
the good the bad between
we don’t want to be saviors
it’s too hard to be so clean
so we will back them
back those we know have killed
the child abusers
the animals that never heal
we damn the ones
the ones who have already served time
but won’t give up
give up the ones that prey in the light
we’re all complicit
as we keep demons as our friends
they make bad choices
but in the end it isn’t them
we’re all complicit
when it comes to those we love
we hold them up
even when we know the evils done
oh he’s a rapist
that one a pedophile
he hurts children
that one beats women
and she’s real violent
but we just ignore it
it’s too hard to keep the score
we’re all complicit
and won’t admit we’re sorry inside
it’s why we hate ourselves
why we eat the good alive
because it’s criminal
to hide the truth so deep inside
we’re all complicit
we know the evil by first name
we’ll buy the album
and defend our friends against
due shame
we’re all complicit
because we never say the name