Bad girl summer

Bad girl summer
it’s just what we do
our time’s over
we got much to pursue
looking for new love
but nothing from you
bad girl summer
we breaking the rules
crying and lying
lost in the glitter
showing the skin
clouds getting thicker
I’ll say that it’s you
but we know that it’s me
I broke the rules
like the bad girl I be

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Screaming and dreaming

Screaming and dreaming
that this will all now end
the river of blood
that it has been pretend
that every pain and cut
that we have suffered
is just another nightmare
existing under covers
screaming and dreaming
of something than the other
every bit of malcontent
the dreams of cowards
years we spent
and now it ends with this
screaming in the decadence

Coated

Candy coated splatter on my heart
drinking before noon becomes an art
sitting in the backseat of some guy’s car
little edgy girls they fall apart
here they are again a different set
candy coated innocence well bred
drinking in the sun and driving far
little girls all divas in the stars
girlhood starts to die this time tonight
crying is romantic when your high

Nothing comes

Fire burning inside
the feelings stop when you cry
everything is dying
this bitter word keeps calling
ashes become flesh and
and everything is falling
fire burned forever
screams don’t make it better
tears just wet the ashes
and everything starts crumbling
crumbling down dusting
dusting all below see
and nothing comes from crying

All I’ve got

Please just let me go
if you don’t think I know
the hate you gave me to eat
I chew the fat and drink the rain
the rain it falls from tears I make
please just unchain me now
you don’t hear the very sound
of me screaming crying out
let me go or kill this flesh
bleed me dry drink what’s left
please just free me from this hell
I once did think you knew me well
but now I’m crying in the dark
the hate you give it’s all I’ve got

Out comes the knife

Into the veins
into the tear ducts
into your eyelids
outcomes the secrets
burnt from the lies
that paint up your tongue
burning with questions
what do you love
breathing the air
and burning from sun
lips haven’t healed
bleeding from gums
into the veins
these wounds won’t heal
trying to remember
what is not real
into the tear ducts
out with the lies
no one is crying
just keep getting by
outcomes the secrets
the pain that you hide
into the veins
out comes the knife

Walls

Through the walls
we hear you
the grieving in your beds
screaming at your children
fighting over head
through the walls
we know you
as cowards and as thieves
laughter turns to violence
and crying turns to screams
it may all be happening
through the walls
it could be seen
or maybe it’s just nothing
all images in my head
through the walls is something
very different
it all could be a fever dream
or worse than we’d expect
through the walls is humanity
in all its happenstance

Nightmares

I don’t know what I’m crying for
I just know I’m dying on the floor
moaning and sighing
this heart aches for more
but it’s gone now
it’s gone now
the feeling I was holding
it’s gone now
and I don’t have a cure for sobbing
it’s gone now I’m broken
but it’s not alright
no beauty here, no tragic light
no candle dinners this time tonight
I don’t know what I’m crying for
don’t know why my heart is sore
why every bone is breaking
or why my hands are shaking
I don’t know what’s wrong with me
another breakdown another bad dream