Babe you’re not punched

Babe I uh I uh
just need some time to think
to come up with what just happened
when I threw the kitchen sink
babe you don’t know what
uh you don’t know what you’re saying
babe you have not been punched
I didn’t fucking hit you
at least not hard enough
you are so much bigger
men are naturally so tough
I just need a little time here
a little time to lie
too manipulate your thinking
make you believe the victim was I
I didn’t fucking punch you
but even if I did
no one will believe you
babe a woman never fibs

Begging me

Begging me to stop now
bringing me to tears
I drink the words I like best
I drown myself in mirrors
reflection of what might have been
a better story to tell
I can give you exciting dreams
but I don’t think I should
begging me to stop now
yelling at myself
want to stop the lying
stop dreaming of the sound
the words they get me drunk off
everything I’ve said
I can make them believe
anything I want
bringing me to tears
bringing me too much
begging me to stop now
I drown myself in mirrors
I drink way too many words
I can tell you stories
change the entire world

The way

This isn’t what I wanted
always said that wouldn’t be me
learned that life is funny
and it doesn’t care what you think
you don’t get to choose when you mess up
you don’t get to wash it away
no you have to live with what you’ve done here
you have to live with what you did
even when you were to young
even when you’re too old
you have to live up to memory
you have to reap what you sow
you can’t just keep what you want to believe
pretend that the truth is your own
always said that wouldn’t be me
learned the hard way it’s who I am
can’t take back what I’ve done in life
can’t pretend it’s not bad
all I know is I’m where I am at
where I’d like to go
maybe if I’m wise enough
I just might see the way

Forget, move on

So many promises
broken, lost and discarded
you never told me
what you really wanted
this is not okay,
no, it’s really quite disgusting
that my only crime is believing
what you told me,
so many little things left unsaid
didn’t take the time to be acquainted
you took to speaking words so confident
but you never came through
you never made good
just kept fucking talking
like one day you would
but one day never comes
it never gets better
until the final day when I forget forever
every promise broken let’s say that I forgot
I don’t really know you
just start new with what you got
so many broken promises
I forget and then move on

Really hurt

It’s what we get
it isn’t right
when one can go
from shades of white
to have their whole identity
written out and then believed
we deserve what we received
we let their lies stand still believed
it’s what we get for misreading
it’s what we get it isn’t right
it isn’t what you wanna see tonight
but we got what we deserved
burning ourselves really hurt

The way home

She used to whisper that she understood
like the waves of the ocean knew she would
as every little comfort that tucked her in
she used to believe so strongly
her heart grown colder and wanting
she used to whisper softly
take walks and think of longing
so lost and long ago
the ocean waves they had always known
she’d make her way back home

In the name of youth

Let’s redeem R Kelly
how that feels to read
let’s forget his crimes now
oh now that we believe
why do we trust these victims
only when they’re adults
why must we beat the children
devour the youth at any cost
let’s redeem R Kelly
cancel someone else instead
he can still make music
he can still give bread
let’s redeem R Kelly
oh why must we love fiends
but only when they abuse children
yes them we protect with ease
we unbury the dead, dig graves
and piss on them
we’d rather repeat ourselves
with lies and ridiculous doubt
let’s forget the truth
what we know and what we knew
let’s eat the children destroy the youth
all for some immortality pursuit
never grow old just sacrifice the new

The wheels keep turning

Take away the darkness
blind me with light
break all the shadows
whiteout my eyes
cleanse all the evils
make this world clean
forget that the demons
come from cowards and thieves
from those that both swallow
and shit what they eat
an awful undoing
of repetitious deeds
a constant redoing of
what we don’t need-
the sepsis will come
from under our skin
but if I am blinded-
if I can’t see
will I taste the shit
they’ve placed before me?