Like riding a bike

Learning how to eat again
learning how to walk
remember all the times you got
lost inside that talk
when everything feels so secure
like you got it on lock
but now you’re learning how to eat
like it’s something you forgot
everything comes at a head
and now it’s all been lost
learning how to eat again
like learning how to walk

Ready for a drink

Tell me are you ready
are you ready for me
bleed me fucking dry
drink what’s in my veins
you ready for the game
you ready for the ride
I’ll show you fucking crazy
I’ll show you a good time
you ready for the new world
you ready for my rhymes
ready for the alley cats
playing all the time
tell me if you got the secret
secret to unlock
drinking down my blood
be sure you don’t get lost.

And now

I want to do so much
want to get it done
I want to finish up
but movement is not fun
my brain has crippled me
and now
now I’m so worn out
barely even write
I focus on eating
to survive
slowed down
and I’ve forgot
how I did so much
feeling so lost

Sorrow becomes flesh

Suffocating sadness
mind taken over madness
this time we hit a wall
thought we had it all
this is why it hurts so much
it suffocates the lungs
the heart ain’t having fun
we lost our senses numb
we wonder what went wrong
watching all along
as dogs feed off the corpses
as vultures circles closely
we show a sign of weakness
a sign that we to be defeated
they’ll eat us while we’re living
bleed us make us sing
suffocating sadness
madness our new home
sorrow that becomes flesh
leaves one lost and so alone

Growing thorns

Watch the roses grow
and say you’ll always show
the pride that’s in your heart
you’ve made gardening an art
the joy that comes with bloom
ignore the thorns and fumes
pretend the roses smell
as beautiful and frail
watch the roses grow
red blossoms bloom and show
the love of all you’ve made
they take your pride and spade
bought the home you live
the garden blessed within
watch your roses grow
ignore the thorns and hope
that everything you’ve wrought
won’t kill what little happiness
you’ve got

Exhaustion

Everything is to damn hard
nothing makes sense
it’s just too much
I don’t want to be so caught up
I don’t want to be so confused
frustrated because I don’t understand
living in this world is just so bad
breathing would be a chore if I
I confronted this choice of mine
everything is just so hard
can’t make it the struggle is wrong
everything is living life
I’m too tired man I’m too high
can’t function it’s just not right
I let myself go and that’s just fine
is it living if I’m not alive?

I am champagne

Pink ribbons, pretty bows,
handcuffs like no one knows
I talk about the things we’d do
if you knew that I wanted too-
pretend we don’t
like the world don’t know-
I didn’t gloat
riding that free slit float-
I got the pink ribbons,
I got the pretty silk bows,
I may be a grown woman
but that shit I’ll never show
act fast and die hard
live it up and regret large
pink ribbons and daffodils
I got the flowers to pay the bills
I got that girlhood
grown woman make you feel good
I am that free champagne
doe eyed-you’d go insane.
I act like pretty in pink
too far off from being sixteen,
I talk and walk so hard
got that free flag up as art,
pink ribbons and pretty bows
I rock that cheap shit
like the world don’t know
handcuffs in fur my body bent back
I keep pretending
like my innocence isn’t on tap
while the whole world’s drinking
pretty ribbons keep me flat
girlhood is flaunted artificial at that
pretty pink ribbons, soft and wet
I make decisions I’m bound to regret

Born of

I see it all around me
the bricks have all gone grey
the reasons for the changing
have all but melt away
the monsters are still lurking
never to dissipate
the evil that they wrought here
will never ever fade
the bricks have all gone grey
and buildings have grown silent
I see it all around me
as I wonder what to do
I look like a monster
because I was born of you.

Seven simple arbitrary numbers

I love you
don’t you understand
you are
like my biggest fan
I adore you
even though we’ve never met
I know you
and all about your circumstance
do you want me
tell me everything
that you got off me
like a little birdie I sing softly
so don’t you ever speak just listen
when I’m talking
you want me
I love you oh so much
and now we’re walking
you’re like my biggest fan
don’t you understand
cause you still want me
as I shove you off a cliff
you’re falling
falling faster than I can catch
just keep calling and calling
I love you
even though we’ve never met
you’re like my biggest fan
I won’t forget
but then again we’ve never met
I love you
but more so I just love the checks