the agreement

Lift me up oh Goddess-

hag of Hell beneath

Queen of souls forgotten-

rotten flesh within my teeth.

Bring me to the mountain,

bring me to your sea,

lets banish hearts together

bring cowards to their deeds

dance upon the waters, cliff tops,

and graves

sing to all your glory, power that brings pain

Let us feast together

bring torment to the thieves

cast them down

like sinners

force drink of truth and seed.

Wrought to sow the wasted,

choices they don’t own.

Goddess of the dead-

take me by the hand

use my gift and send

them begging back from dread

the last words that I said

Hel let them haunt them til the end.

 

(23 July 2016)

 

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Take me down

Take me down to the river

break me down at the knees,

tear my heart wide open-feast

on glory begotten by thieves.

Taste all the sweeter

the more that you eat her-

the pit in my chest

all the same.

I’ll keep on hiding remember

I’m trying while you live beside

the dead.

A zombie of triumph

the love undenied trust

a mirror of joy through the pain.

This girls a riot

a poison-on fire

a pariah whose forgotten her head.

Kill them with kindness?

Perform for your highness?

A queen whose forgotten her bed.

I’ll dine on my blood

forget that I sold up

my demons for pills and this smile.

I’ll stand before you

gapping heart implore you

this hole is just bleeding on your floor.

I’ll keep believing as long as your breathing rip me apart-I want more!

Look at me I’m screaming-someday you’ll need me!

I’m writhing inside on the shore,

inside my head I find a half dozen mines

a world too confine-

yes, yes, I’m fine.

Pretty true lies in time allies

a smile that whispers alright.

Pain washes back keeping it trapt the monsters beneath the waves. In time you’ll see feasting on seams

only keeps you so long in a seed. Changing of tides-someday I’ll die

paint another perfect melody.

 

(22 July 2016)

 

Metals gleam

Little razor make me bleed

help me lose control and seize

the moments that belong to me.

Cure me of my disease

break me out of lock and key.

Let us fix the damage done,

create morbid beauty-half the fun

a trail in what’s become-

of the little angel, white as snow,

the abandon princess-no where to go. Find the razor, find your home

the flesh once cut no longer moans-

take the candle burn me out-

take the child morn the doubt.

Give the alters to your knees

supplement your faith for seeds

never know how much you’ll bleed.

Little razor forgotten means

forgive me of what I have seen

bleed me dry

the metals gleam.

 

(08 July 2016)

 

All that’s left

I am little, I am big-build the

curse that lives within.

A breath of Sun, a right as rain-

they will consider all they’ve paid.

Never knowing what will come

reading never showed the sum

spirits raving over dreams

life caught up or so it would seem.

Bury bones beneath your skin

the sum of your parts

the beast and sin,

ever the beauty the devil’s within-

brighten the surface-let it begin!

Worship the master, the child,

the kid. Lamb of the fallen-

a true God sets in-

daughter of harem, a

whore free from sin

triumphed the darkness, lead the witch to fight again.

Bury the hatchet

as I drown and scream

my flesh just a canvas

a holder of seed.

Basket of lovers, souls and of fiends

living a burden of setting you free.

I am no prophet, no saint, nor angel trail by error, fire and stone.

Bleed me ’til Heaven calls out my name

drags me to hell where I am too stay

eating your sins ’til judgement day.

I am your keeper, your burden, your safe.

 

(8 July 2012)

 

fallen up

I will tell of everything;

the cards, the sky, the earth beneath-

truth devour, hells belief,

the morning star’s unspent  bequeath.

I have seen the world beyond,

threads connecting through the fog-

visions of what’s come to be.

They no longer bemuse me

tired of the games defraud-

lonely idols, chosen gods.

Life half lived under glass

call for the raven-freedom at last!

Save me from what might have been,

lift the curse, unveil the sin,

gather up my roots and then:

give back living from within.

 

(23 June 2016)

 

christmas angel

Behind the glass I witness-

the dying of the light

a ward of iron madness,

a keeper chained by sight.

Look beyond the stars, hear the

voices of the gods-surrender to the mob. Ever lasting.

Behind the glass it frost, fogging all but lost

for all the years forgot,

watching this world rot.

Violence is a game-

crying out in shame

I would keep you safe, but I’ve been turned away.

Behind this glass I watch

knowing all along

the angel in deaths clothing

takes the demon from it’s cross.

I’m an ornament, a starlight bathed in sin-the world my oxygen

as I dance for you again.

Behind the glass I see

everything you breed;

the hate, the love, the hollow pieces

representing peace.

I could lead you to mercy, wash away your sin wear it on my flesh

give freedom from within. Yet

you’ve placed me on a mantel

like an angel atop a tree

a gift for sheer amusement

making prophecy for thieves.

 

(22 June 2016)

 

Dedication

Lead me beside the water

lay my head so I may drink

bleed my soul of envy

breathe death into me.

I have suffered a thousand lives

mistaken for a Queen;

a faceless mirror beast,

gilded servant dressed

in weeds.

Lead me to the mountain

take my life for God.

I’ll wake up in the morning

still breathing-still grieving

a believer ever more.

Lead me to the pyre

feed my soul the fire-Holy Spirit

keep me breathing, broken soul

still bleeding out my heart

redeeming.

Keep me whole-forgive me

and lead me to the water

lay my head to drink.

I will be Your faithful

through burden and defeat.

 

(17 June 2016)

 

Calling

In the dark you’ve called for me

blistered skin, on frozen cheek

fade to sounds

dare not speak-the horror that’s been done to he.

One to three a vultures keep-

the beyond- power seek

break the chains upon

your feet

ankles bound by shackles bleed,

iron rust-succumb to sleep.

Shadows never meant to be

take the prize, take their feed

make a devils get complete.

In the dark you called for me,

answered by the fall you see

take the bell ring it’s fate

all your enemies

will be slayed.

Glory for the shadows

redemption for their pride-

give the blood tomorrow

their power undenied.

 

(16 June 2016)

 

Between pages

My life is sacrifice

paintings on the wall

symbols of wanderlust

absolute, absolve.

This world a fairytale

a dream-I can’t wake up!

No rabbit, no wardrobe, no

building of the ark-

I was born in wonderland

unreality my home- trouble is I see the writing,

over everything-

see the veil and what’s beneath

reality is clear.

My life is sacrifice

a princess but a slave.

Gilded like a goddess

a servant whore on display.

Beat me with my gifts

tell me that I’m loved

govern my existence

offer me to God.

Chain me to the bed post

torture me with Sun.

My life is no life

this body not my own

this land of wonder lust

thoughts become my tome.

(16 June 2016)

 

sin eater

I remember;

a vision of what’s to be,

redemption bringer-

sin eater-

Queen of the unseen.

Army of fallen angels

demons of the trade

bring the souls of vision-

reconstruct their debt.

Borrowed vision

see the truth

you’re crimes will ever be removed.

I remember a warrior Queen

saint of the sinful

Lucifer’s dream.

This is the life hidden for me-

a mother in madness,

meant to lead,

ever the teacher a version

conceived

finally understood what’s meant

to be.

(16 June 2016)